Synchronicity
By
Christine Winger
I have recently
returned home from a weekend workshop with Kelly Tobey in Winnipeg
entitled “The Dance of Relationships”, where some healing around the
theme of unworthiness occurred for me.
The synchronicities that always seem to weave their way through
Kelly’s work never cease to astound me. We often choose blindly from
special decks of cards to identify the challenges we are each working through
in a given workshop. As well we pick cards that represent the “way
through” the challenge and the gift to be received as we move through
the challenge. My challenge card this time was “Unworthiness”, with
“Differentiation” as the way through and a gift of “Simplicity”
on the other side.
Although I had uncovered a subconscious
belief of my own unworthiness through previous work with Kelly, I
wasn’t quite grasping the full significance of choosing these cards
during the workshop. I was, however, facing other fears, discovering
more about myself every day, and experiencing the expansion of
open-heartedness that results from this.
The environment of safety, support,
acceptance, openness, and gentle encouragement that is created at these
workshops had enabled me to expand my heart to give and receive even
more love than usual. I was almost forgetting about the lessons in the
cards I had picked, as I focused on appreciating the deeper connections
I was experiencing with many others in the group.
I left the workshop with a heart
overflowing with love and happiness, amazed by the scope of my own
transformation in just a few short days.
Soon after I returned home, I decided to
take a quick trip to my favourite spot in Nature to attempt to ground
all the learning, expansion, and love in my life.
The powerful synchronicity of this style
of growth work came through loud and clear on my way to my favourite
spot.
I was centered in the deepest knowing ever
of who I am as I drove to Long Beach, surrounded by the magnificent
beauty of rugged Vancouver Island. I was moved so deeply by the subtle
nuances of light shining through the misty trees that I instantly
unravelled a belief system that used to tell me I was unworthy of
receiving very much love, happiness, and abundance because it would take
it away from someone else. Scarcity thinking …… as if there was not
enough to go around, so why do I deserve so much? As I revelled in
beauty, I realized that in the deep truth of the moment for me, there is
room for the deep truth of everyone to exist. There is no comparison
between our truths, our Essences, so there are no losers, no one deemed
unworthy. Not good enough shifted into enough love, happiness, and
abundance for all. Always. And the way to this is to open my heart and
freely express my truth. Simply be myself. Just allow it. The simplicity
of just being true to myself replaced years of chaotic struggle
attempting to discern the “right” way to be so that I would win my
own internal comparison game and be judged worthy. Tears of gratitude
flowed for a long time as I marvelled at the magical way this huge
lesson just snuck up on me, without any mental effort on my part.
Amazing synchronicity!
Now I can see clearly the link between
this workshop and the upcoming Calgary workshop entitled “Regaining
Your Personal Power”: even though I have always felt disconnected from
my power, it has always been available to me. I have just refrained from
using it because I thought I was unworthy of its gifts of love,
happiness, and abundance. So I am very excited about this workshop in
Calgary as the theme seems to hold the next level of discovery and
healing for me. A safe place for me to discover all the places in my
life that I can recover my power to manifest these gifts in a way that
fully expresses the unique essence of me!
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